Just something to share

When I was dropping Vivien off at her school this morning, I stopped by the front office to talk to the ladies in there. Vivien got in trouble again yesterday and was sent to the principals office for yet another swat.
Anyway...She had on her desk in a card holder, not business cards, but a prayer for anyone that needed it to take:

Dear Jesus,

I am thankful that when

I am powerless and my life has become

unmanageable, You will restore

me to sanity if I

turn my will and my life

over to You.

this is just what I needed to make it through.

Hard Lesson Learned

After almost 3 weeks I found a job on Tuesday. Actually...the job is something that I'm good at, was 'I think" born to do in life.
Ever since I can remember I always wanted to go to Hollywood and do Hair & Make-up for the stars.
Now...I did not take my dream all the way to Hollywood, but I did go to school so that I could get my Cosmetology License. I cut hair off and on for 14 years. If I had followed my heart and made myself happy it would have been 16 years straight now, but instead, I let someone tell me that cutting hair was not a "real job" and that I needed to make more money and have insurance, 401K ect..
So...to make this person happy, instead of making myself happy, I have been at a job that after about 4 months into realized I made a huge mistake. It was an office job. Yes...I made more money, had all the benefits of an office job, I also got something that I was not use to...STRESS!!
Office politics, I don't play that game very well. So for 2 years and some months I worked at this job and busted my butt for this company.
Guess what I got for my hard work...I got told that "it just was not working out". Just like that I'm out of a job. 2 years of un-needed stress, what a waste!!!!
So...the job I got on Tues. is cutting hair again. Let's just say that I have finally learned to make myself happy and not let anyone change my mind to do it differently. If I had only done that 2 years ago!!
This has been the hardest lesson I have learned so far!!!
Maybe now I can be happy!

"Things To Ponder"

I got an e-mail the other day with several statements that would make one ponder at the question.
I thought I would share just a few of the one's that really made me "stop and ponder":

1. If corn oil is made from corn & veg. oil is made from veggies, what is baby oil made from?
2. Is Disney World the only people trap operated by a mouse?
3. Can you cry under water?
4. Since bread is square, then why is sandwich meat round??
5. How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated, instead of just murdered?

# 5 really made me stop and think. I did a little research on the actual words "assassinate & murder" This come straight out of the "Webster's Unabridged Dictionary"

Assassin: 1. A murderer, esp. One who kills a politically prominent person for fanatical or monetary reasons.

Assassinate: 1. to kill suddenly or secretively, esp. A politically prominent person; murder premeditatedly & treacherously.

Murder: 1. law the killing of another human being under conditions specifically covered in law. In the U.S., special statutory definitions include murder committed with malice aforethought, characterized by deliberation or premeditation or occurring during the commission of another serious crime, as robbery or arson, a murder by intent but without deliberation or premeditation.

The words are defined the same way, just assassinate has the word "politically prominent person" in it.

So...Why is it that we as a human race think political people are more important than your average trash man, teacher, law officer, doctor, or just the avg. person trying to make it from pay check to pay check. Their "killings" get a special word for their death.

It's just funny to me how the world views have gotten so off course from the way God actually intended for us to.. Makes me stop and think about a lot of other things that are just out of control in the world we live in.

MOTHERHOOD

Ever since I can remember I have always wanted to be a mom.

Up until about 2 weeks ago, I thought I was a good mom. Not better than any other mom...Just doing what I thought was right. I have a 5 year old girl that started kindergarten in Aug.

For the last 3 weeks she has been getting in trouble at school almost everyday.
She has even been down to the principals office and YES...She got a swat with the paddle.
Last night I had to take all of her favorite toys away because she has gotten her name on the board both Mon. & Tues. of this week.
I'm just pray that today when I go to get her from school that she does not have her name on the board. I want to have a fun evening with my little girl. I have been so upset about it.

I guess some where I have gone wrong. Really Wrong!! I just pray that God will show her the way and show me the way to deal with this problem. She is only 5 and already I feel like a complete failure.

Finding Yourself "again"

At 34 yrs old I have had yet another life changing event happen. Last Thursday (fir the 1st time in my life) I got fired from my job that I had been at for only 2 yrs. I didn't like the job anyway and the week before I was going to put in my 2 week notice.
I guess it's just the fact that they did it before I could do it 1st.
Still one has to think of there responsibilities and mine is a 5 yr old little girl. That is the whole reason that I did not quit. I hope the 2 people that fired me can sleep at night knowing that they put a single mom with a 5 yr old out of a job. It is was me I would not have been able to do it.
Oh well....Everything happens for a reason and I had been praying to God for an answer. I got an answer alright!!! Not quite the one I was hoping for but that is not always how it works.

I got the classifieds out on Friday and there is an opening in a Salon for a receptionist. I was a hairdresser for 14 yrs and I should have no problem getting the job. The only thing that would hold me back from taking it or getting it would be the late hours. I have to pick Vivien up from school by 6:00. It is an upscale salon called the "Ann Wayne Salon".
I think I will go and fill out an app. Who knows...Maybe this could be a start of a whole new life.
I know I'm not missing the stress of going to my old job. I have not had a headache since last Friday. I was getting headaches every day...Now I know why
Wish me luck!!!

Only took 11 days!!!!!

Only 11 days for what you might ask...Well let me tell you. My little Vivien started kindergarten on Aug (Wed.). She seems to be doing really well and the 1st full week of school she brings home her "CODE OF CONDUCT" sheet for the parents to look at and for us to sign it. I was looking over Vivien's sheet and she got some really good marks for the 1st full week of school.
Also they get a grade on there BIBLE verse that they have to say on Friday's in front of the class. She got the highest grade you can get. That would be an "O" for outstanding...Is able to recite the verse w/out any help from the teacher.
How proud am I of my baby girl. VERY,VERY,VERY PROUD!!!!!
So, here I am thinking that maybe, just maybe she has matured a little since she is in "BIG" school now. "WRONG", "WRONG" & "WRONG AGAIN", on Wed. We are on our way to get in the car and like I do every day, get her folder out of her backpack to see her papers and the "smiley face stamp" on the square for the day. I open the folder and what do I see...NOT as smiley face!!!! When they get there name on the board the teacher will write down what was going on. Seems my little one was having trouble with
"kindness & self-control" I was so disappointed. I asked her what had happened and so that night sat down and wrote Mrs. Hensley a note.
Thurs. On our way to school in the morning we are having a talk about how she needs to be kind and use self-control today. She is like, o.k. momma I will, I promise!!
When I pick her up that afternoon, I get the folder and she has a smiley face for the day!!
However...There is a pink note from the teacher to me. Vivien seems to like to get neg. Attention, just as long as it is some kind of attention.
Could this be because she is an only child and has not had to compete for my attention. HUM....Everyone at the school says that it is normal "learning" period for all the students. I'm still concerned, I will just wait and see what happens in the weeks to come and go from there. She is a sweet little girl (when she wants to be), I don't know what goes through that little head of hers sometimes.
I am working at home with her on the way we talk to people, it is party my fault because I have been stressed out and quit to jump on her when I should count to 10 and then approach the subject. This school year will be a learning experience for the both of us. All I can say is that I have been doing A LOT of praying. God always gives me an answer, sometimes I don't always like the answer I get, but...That is not for me to decide.
I just try my best to be a good mom and teach her what is right and wrong!!