Will be a sad day

Ever since I was 11 yrs old and became obessed with driving,

I have wanted a Mustang.

Not just any Mustang a 64 1/2 conv. w/ the org. 289 4 speed. I have several hot wheel cars, some other sizes that I have found & the one that cost me the most was my favorite model...The one that came from the derby Mint. It has a certificate of authancey with a number of how many were made. It cost $100 back in 1991 when I got it. Anyone that know me knows of my obession with the Mustang. Most would go so far to say that when they are not with me and they see a Mustang the 1st person they think of is Me!!! I have even had ex-boyfriends tell me that.

So...I finally get the point in my life when I can buy a Mustang, however it's not the 64 1/2 conv., but it is a 1994 GT 5.0/ 5 speed. I get to drive it off the lot with only 170miles on it. I was on my own living with a friend. I worked 2 jobs for 5 years to pay for that car. So much has happened in my car. I'm always the one that drives when me & my friends (use to ) go out (I didn't drink & drive). So I was the DD all the time & I did not mind. I love to drive.

However...The car is now going to be 12 yrs old on Jan. 31,06. The last 3 years a lot of money has gone into. Not all my money...My parents have helped me out. I have a 5yr old now & can't work 2 jobs. Last week the bill was in the $600 range & today was another bill in the $600 range. The mach. Told my dad that there is about another 1,200 that it will need sooner than later. This you see makes me VERY sad. My mom & dad have said they will not put any more money in it. I'm going to cry if they make me sell my car. That is the only thing I have to show for, that I bought & payed for on my own. I'm 34yrs old and life has thrown me a HUGE curve ball.

How do I make them understand how much this car means to me and what it represents for me & my life????

Sad day is about to come :(

Me & Vivien 

Vivien Blair 

my girl 

my little model 

vivien 5 yrs old 

The New "JOB"

Can you say...I'M JUST THE NEW GIRL!!!!!
I have been there for 3 days & with only 12 hours total last week of training & to top it off the position I took over is all messed up. The girl that was there before me is now in outside sales, so she just left me with all her undone stuff. Oh & did I mention that SHE WAS BEHIND!!!
So...I start this new job with a position that is already behind & I don't know what in the hell I'm doing.
Lucky for me...I learn quick. The software they use is just wrong, but for some reason I have been blessed with the ability to pick up just about anything that has to do with a computer.
I have pretty much learned the system, the main things that I need for right now anyway.
I know it will get better, I just have to stick with it. It will help when I get my desk the way I want it, not the way it is now. It looks like a tree threw up on my desk.
Then I just have to figure out a way to tell my 2 outside sales men to BACK OFF MY SPACE!!
Men...They are driving me crazy.
At least the money will be good!!

The Next Phase...

In the next 2 weeks my life & Vivien's life are about to change. Change in a big time way, we are moving in with my parents. They are great don't get me wrong, but I have been on my own since I was 19 yrs. old. I moved out with my best friend. I have not lived at home since. I am 34 yrs. old now and this is something that will help me insure a better life in the future for my daughter. It will be a big adjustment for me more so than Vivien. She is only 5, she will love living with Nana & Papa!!! What grandkid wouldn't!! I just hope that I'm making the right decisions for us. Only time will tell on that.

In the midst of all this change I also have another new job. Working in the millwork industry, I have been training all this week and today was the 1st day that I had a chance to get on the computer system and see what it was all about. I have been watching all week. I'm more of a hands on type learner. It is going to be tuff, but hopefully I can do a good job. I learn really quick so that is in my favor.

Maybe in 7 months I will be able to write something great about my life and the way it is headed. As of now...Things are so up in the air, it's hard to be happy.
I have just been taking one day at a time and I'm trying to be as positive as I can.