The TWINS are here!! I am truly blessed to have them here safe and sound.
They were born at 34 weeks, 6 lbs 12 ozs my boy Rhett Montgomery, & 4 lbs 10 ozs my girl Savannah Leigh. Their BIG sissy Vivien Blair is doing such a great job in helping me out with them. She will feed them for me and it is so cute. They are eating cereal now and Vivien has feed them both, it is so cute. She gets it all over there face. She thinks it is so funny to have it all over their face.
Being a mom of 3 is very different. It is hard, but it is cool. The twins are almost 4 months old and they are starting to talk and smile and just be so alert. It is so fun to see them smile at you in the morning when they are just waking up.
That is what gets me through the day...is to know that I will get to come home and see 3 faces smile at me.
That is the best feeling ever!!!!

"TWINS"

Just when you think you are goiing to finally get your life back on the right track, save some
money, get your head on straight..."BOOM", bomb falls right into your lap.

You are preg., yes preg. not a little bit preg. with the normal 1 child, but you find out that the reason you have been so dizzy & had quite a bit of nausa, and let's not forget that I CAN'T KEEP MY MOUTH OUT OF THE TROUF!!!!!!
The last thing on my mind when the Doc. told me yesterday (at about 5:00pm, we had been at JPS since 8:30am) the words

YOU ARE HAVING TWINS

Thats right twins, can you say "OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD", that was the 1st thing out of my sister Jennifers mouth, followed by what she wanted them to be, BOYS, NO MAYBE A BOY AND A GIRL!,

My little sisters 1st words to me were "YOU ARE GOING TO BE SO POOR"

The due date is 2 days before jennifers b-day, Aug. 26th, that will mean that Aug. will truly be the B-day month for the family

It goes like this:

1. Aug. 8, Kimberly & Zach's B-days
2. Aug. 15, Mom & Dads 19th anniv.
3. Aug. 17, Grandma 86th B-day
4. Aug. 20th, Aarons B-day
5. Aug. 26th "twins are born"
6. Aug. 28th, Jennifers B-day

What a month!!!!!!

things will be fine & yes...I will be poor, but at least I will be happy with all my kids around me. Vivien will always, always be #1, but she will make a good big sis when it is all said and done.

"HAPPY NEW YEAR"

The first day of a new year!!!
A chance to start over on things you wanted to do last year.
A chance to make wrong things, right.
New goals, or fine tuning some old ones.
Just trying to find a happy point in your life.
Remembering each day that you should live that day like it was your last, you just never know!!

The last line brings me to the point I came downstairs to enter this blog. Today for some reason I realized something about life. Everyone always thinks "oh that would never happen to me".
Well...I have been trying to get back to the old "me" that always was a positive thinker.
Things, People, Jobs changed all that in the last 7 years. My life is not hard by any means, it really never has been. Yes...Bad things have happened, but everyone has bad things happen.
That IS life, our lessons from God. What we chose to do with them that is up to the person.

My little sis had a dear friend die today.
How could anyone have known that on Thursday, when he simply cut his foot open, went to the hospital to have it taken care of, would be gone by Sunday. 4 days and a good man has died from a blood infection.
How valuable is every second of your life then, when you are faced with that. These types of things happen everyday, but its what we do when we get up every morning, a new day god has given us, how will we spend that day.
I know I am going to be looking a my mornings a little different this year.

I THANK GOD EVERY DAY...

Every morning when I wake up, I thank God for everything he has giving me in my life. My life has not been the all American, white picket fence, walk in closet, dog in the back yard life...However, the past few months God has been teaching me a very valuable lesson. That "my"so called hard life, is in fact not that hard at all. Things could be a lot worse!!!! There are people around me that I know who have had a much harder life than I could even think of. The past few months God has giving me a different outlook at my situtation, my life, whatever you want to call it. I'm really VERY lucky to have a family, friends, & a wonderful little girl in my life. People that care about me & love me. Most people go through life with only a few of these things & I have all of them. What could I possibly have to bitch about. About 6-1/2 yrs. Ago I was always a very positive person and hardly ever thought negative. Then I met my ex, "who" was always negative & somehow by being with him he changed me into a different person. Not for the worse or anything & not for the better...Just different. I have been really trying not to forget that I am very lucky to have what I have. Sometimes it just gets really hard!!!!

"CHRISTMAS TIME"

Christmas Time is my favorite holiday...However over the past few years it has changed a lot.

Over the years family members have grown up, had children, moved away, gotten married ect...

It happens, the other day I was looking at one Vivien's scrapbooks that I have made for her and saw a picture of my 2 sisters & I laughing. It was the year that my mom on Christmas eve made us open the gift that she picked out. It was a pair of P.J.'s. (we get P.J.'s just about every year), but this year all 3 of us opened our present at the same time to reveal the same pair of P.J.'s. It was so funny. So all 3 of us went into the room and changed into the matching sleepwear we had just opened. The picture is of all 3 of us laying down on the floor hugging each other. It is a great picture since we do not have very many like that. We are all very different, but in the same since we are all very much alike. Just in different ways. It's funny how you can share the same DNA, but look at things so differently. And yet, understand why they may look at it differently. I don't think we are suppose to understand that one!!!

Anyway...This year for Christmas will be the one that is going to not be as great. Let's see, my sister Jennifer & my 2 nephews will not be spending the night on Christmas Eve (like we usually do), my little sis Kimberly & her hubby Alan will not be here (it's along turn), & most of all my brother Aaron will not be here at all (he moved to Cali last summer). So my dad & mom will be very sad since his whole family will not be together this year. It will only be Vivien, Mom, Dad & myself on Christmas Morning. A part of me is very sad, but the other part knows it is just a part of life.

I just thank the Lord everyday that I have a family to be with!!! But most of all I thank him for my little girl Vivien because my life would not be the same without her. She is my whole world!!!

"All settled in"

Finally...Vivien & I are all moved in to my parents house.

1. All the utilities have been turned off (check),

2. Got P.O.Box (check),

3. Getting to work on time (check),

4. All bags & boxes unpacked (check).

Actually, it has been pretty smooth sailing with the transition & all.
My new job is well...Sucks!!! But I'm trying to hang in there at least until the beginning of the year.

"Lot's of changes coming down from Corp. & all, very important with our move to the new building"

good thing we are moving by March, because we are all packed in like sardines and these sardines are not the real friendly kind.

Yes...The girls I work with are mean. Just not real nice or outgoing. Don't know what that is all about, but it's kindof good. Why...So that BIG mouth (me) will keep from talking my head off about stuff that just is nobody's business.

I'm just and open person. I guess that is why I loved my job as a hair dresser. People "WANT" to talk when they come and get their hair done.

Anyway...My life is not were I had hoped it would be at 34 almost 35 yrs old.
I will say this...I have learned a lot over the past few years, things I probably did not want to learn.
Now as I have this new beginning I am going to try my damnest not to screw up my 5 yr olds life & what is left of mine try to make better.

I want for my daughter one day to look back at her childhood and the 1st things she thinks about is positive or fun, not to be a bad memory or a bad time in her life.
For me if someone was to ask me my earliest childhood memory; let's just say it would not be a happy one!!!!
I just pray and thank god everyday for Vivien and my family, & all the strength he has given me in the past years and future years to come.

Will be a sad day

Ever since I was 11 yrs old and became obessed with driving,

I have wanted a Mustang.

Not just any Mustang a 64 1/2 conv. w/ the org. 289 4 speed. I have several hot wheel cars, some other sizes that I have found & the one that cost me the most was my favorite model...The one that came from the derby Mint. It has a certificate of authancey with a number of how many were made. It cost $100 back in 1991 when I got it. Anyone that know me knows of my obession with the Mustang. Most would go so far to say that when they are not with me and they see a Mustang the 1st person they think of is Me!!! I have even had ex-boyfriends tell me that.

So...I finally get the point in my life when I can buy a Mustang, however it's not the 64 1/2 conv., but it is a 1994 GT 5.0/ 5 speed. I get to drive it off the lot with only 170miles on it. I was on my own living with a friend. I worked 2 jobs for 5 years to pay for that car. So much has happened in my car. I'm always the one that drives when me & my friends (use to ) go out (I didn't drink & drive). So I was the DD all the time & I did not mind. I love to drive.

However...The car is now going to be 12 yrs old on Jan. 31,06. The last 3 years a lot of money has gone into. Not all my money...My parents have helped me out. I have a 5yr old now & can't work 2 jobs. Last week the bill was in the $600 range & today was another bill in the $600 range. The mach. Told my dad that there is about another 1,200 that it will need sooner than later. This you see makes me VERY sad. My mom & dad have said they will not put any more money in it. I'm going to cry if they make me sell my car. That is the only thing I have to show for, that I bought & payed for on my own. I'm 34yrs old and life has thrown me a HUGE curve ball.

How do I make them understand how much this car means to me and what it represents for me & my life????

Sad day is about to come :(

Me & Vivien 

Vivien Blair 

my girl 

my little model 

vivien 5 yrs old 

The New "JOB"

Can you say...I'M JUST THE NEW GIRL!!!!!
I have been there for 3 days & with only 12 hours total last week of training & to top it off the position I took over is all messed up. The girl that was there before me is now in outside sales, so she just left me with all her undone stuff. Oh & did I mention that SHE WAS BEHIND!!!
So...I start this new job with a position that is already behind & I don't know what in the hell I'm doing.
Lucky for me...I learn quick. The software they use is just wrong, but for some reason I have been blessed with the ability to pick up just about anything that has to do with a computer.
I have pretty much learned the system, the main things that I need for right now anyway.
I know it will get better, I just have to stick with it. It will help when I get my desk the way I want it, not the way it is now. It looks like a tree threw up on my desk.
Then I just have to figure out a way to tell my 2 outside sales men to BACK OFF MY SPACE!!
Men...They are driving me crazy.
At least the money will be good!!