"LOVE"

LOVE...There are many kinds of love a person can feel, but the one that puzzles me about us "humans" is the "falling in love one". This puzzles me because being in a relationship is HARD WORK. It's like a job more or less and why is that????

I am 34 & been "in love" 3 times, the 1st two times I ended up getting married and divorced. All this before I was 30. "YEA ME"
So...The 3rd and final time (which is now) I hope I don't ever fall in love again. I will not ever get married to this one that I have been dating for 1 1/2yrs, that is because my last time to be married did a number on me. I do not WANT to ever get married and go through that again.

I don't think I'm suppose to be married anyway. I'm too independent and men just don't know how to handle that.

But...My question is this, WHY if you are in love with someone you think you can feel free to just disrespect them (at times) & be mean to them. Then later on act like everything is O.K. and nothing happened. Just brush whatever was said off (like it really did not count or mean anything). Then whatever brought on the argument will just come back in the future because you ignored what the person was trying to get across to you in the 1st place.
Does that make any since to anyone????? Well...Maybe I'm the one that is looking at this relationship stuff all wrong.

I just thought that if you wanted to be with someone & you loved them, you should try to do everything in your power to make them happy. That is at least what I try to do (not perfect) but I do try. I'm not selfish as some people. I give,give,give and everyone just takes,takes, takes.

How do you stop doing all the giving???
Maybe one day I will figure some of it out...Until then I have to just remember to keep my mouth shut about some things & just except THINGS ARE THE WAY THEY ARE.