D.N.A.

D.N.A.??? I have been noticing some things that my little girl has been doing!!! She just turned 5 and long before I put her in a private Pre-K school, she was smart. How smart?? Well...Let's just say that by the age of 2 she could say her ABC's and count to 10, she also by the age of 3 watched me play a game on the computer and a few days later she asked me if she could play. I told her that it was a big girl game and might be too hard. I told her to wait a sec. And I would turn the computer on and let her try. She told me she knew how and she could do it herself. I say O.K.
Guess what?? She logged on to the computer and go on the internet and found the game all by herself. I just stood there with my mouth on the floor. She is truly amazing. Vivien one day will rule the world.

However...She and I have a VERY close bond. I have an eating disorder that I have only admitted to about 2-1/2 yrs ago. I have to fight this battle everyday and I have noticed that Vivien is doing and saying some of the same things that I did or sometimes still do. I will have this disease for the rest of my life. I do not want my little girl to have my same problems. What do I do??? It seems like the harder I try to do things differently...It just does not turn out the way I planned. I am a 34 yr old single mom and sometimes I feel like my 5 yr old takes care of me. She is so wonderful; a handful; but I would not change anything about her and one day I hope that we are the best of friends. God could not have given me Vivien at a better time in my life. Funny how you think back at things that you wished for and never got and at the time you just think it's a cruel joke; but later on down the road an event will occur and that wish will come to mind and then God finally reveals just a glimpse of his grand plan for us. Then everything seems to be just right, just the way they should be.