Pleasing People
Let me just start off by saying that I am 33 yrs old fixin to be 34 on Feb. 8th.
However...I have for the last 34 yrs tried to please EVERYONE around me (family & friends, ect..) and always put myself last. When I do put myself even close to the top of the list, I feel guilty. WHY????
Some of my close friends tell me all the time to make sure I'm happy 1st. I just laugh and laugh and laugh somemore. For you see...I DON'T KNOW HOW!!!! Out of all the people that are closest to me and actually mean the most (besides my daugther Vivien), is the person that I try to please the most and never, and probably never will meet her standards of approval, is MY MOM. I love her dearly, but I really do not think she realizes how hard she makes things for me sometimes. She knows the type of person I am...I strive to make everyone around me happy. Most of the time I do.
I have to figure out a way to stop doing this. My sisters do not have this problem, they just tell mom how it is and that is that. I'm just not so sure I can or will ever be able to do that. Mom and I have had our share of arguements, but I always feel about as big as an ant afterwords and wish that I could take every word I said back. My mom is a GREAT mom and if I am 1/2 the mom that she is, I will be thankful.
posted by sv4494 @ 7:25 PM
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2 Comments:
Jennifer may not have a problem telling Mom "like it is", but she has way more problems, that hopefully, I will never have to help you face.
The only reason you have a problem telling mom how you feel is because you are afraid she will turn on you, she is not gonna. She loves you. She will always be there for you. NO MATTER WHAT.
And if you really think about it. You know that.
Kim...I know that you are right, but it's just so hard to talk to her sometimes. I hope one day soon I will be able to just have the right words come to me and then I will tell her how she makes me feel sometimes.
I love you dearly sis
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